Im standing at the edge and I want to jump but wont because Im a bitch

[lostalice95]

because fuck how I feel. I dont care about you. I dont try to make sure you're happy and ok. Nope all I do is bitch and complian and cry. Oh what's wrong you ask? Well how about the fact that the person I love more than anyone else just told me that he would rather kill himself than be with me? Oh but I forgot Im just a child. Yes I would complain about not keeping any of my money because I would actually like to have some money to buy what I need like tampons or some new socks. Or some underwear that doesnt have holes in it. So I'll just keep stealing money out of my own checks. You know what just fuck everything. I'll just pop another pill and maybe it'll be ok. I won't eat anything with it either because there is no food because your fat ass father spends all his time fucking watching the food network and eating all my food.
I'll just keep it all bottled up. Maybe it will kill me or it won't who cares anymore. I dont.