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My mother helps us out when she can with money, but she is terrified if me having a baby for some reason. I don't understand why, James isn't going anywhere and I have a job that I won't be leaving if it happens... I told her I wasn't going to be doing any birth control anymore because I can't handle it; I go from being viciously defensive and snappish to wanting to curl up and die to sobbing unctrollably for hours on end. It makes me feel like I'm going insane and Im tired of it.. when I told my mom this she said that she had already bought the prescription and that she could've used that money on something else. Que me feeling guilty and getting the shot redone and now it's more of the same unbalanced hormones... I am screaming in between collapsing, crumbling as I try to stand. I don't know how to tell my mother that I don't want to do it anymore and that I do want kids so does James, in fact he has a child that he doesn't get to see because his mother hates him and I can tell he's going to be a great father, based purely on the fact that I know him and Ive seen how he acts around kids, I act the same way... in two more months time this posion will be out of my system and my mother will be wanting to know if I'm going to get another shot. I don't know how to tell her no...