I Don't Know Anymore

[lostalice95]

I feel like sometimes no one understands me, like the way I try to explain thing to James sometimes just don't sink in. He and I are so very diffrent but at the same time we're not and sometimes I wonder if he just didn't agree to be in a relationship with me because he was tired of all his past ones ending in nothing but heartbreak. But somehow, some way he chose me of all people... dealing with stress and depression and the constant up and down mood swings is getting tiresome I just want to be a normal person who doesn't see spirits or feel other people's emotions or go from upbeat and happy one day to spiraling and out of control another. I am burnt out on dealing with my life... and I miss Brittany, no one ever really just calls me up and says "hey how are you?" I miss that... I kicked her out of my life because I c pi uldnt handle her negativity towards any men in my life... I want to reconnect with her but I don't know how is this a good idea? I need advice

Comments

[remiel]

If all she's going to do is rag on all men any time you talk to her...then I'm not sure it'd necessarily be a good idea to start talking to her again, especially since you're currently with a man, you know?

Do you think she'd back off that kind of commentary if you told her how much it bothered you?

[lostalice95]

I don't know honestly the last conversation o had with her i told her that James wasnt abusive and that she didnt have any reason to think so despite the fact that i ranted to her about some of the thinhs that were going on. Much like i do on here. She didnt understand or believe me